setelah bersedih-sedih kemarin karna uang ilang, dompet ilang, sim card xl error, masa aktif indosat abis padahal pulsa banyak (gak...

setelah bersedih-sedih kemarin karna uang ilang, dompet ilang, sim card xl error, masa aktif indosat abis padahal pulsa banyak (gak punya uang buat beli pulsa), speedy mati, bolt ga bisa dipake, dan sekarang gue nangis kaya orang gila ditempat umum setelah liat video diyoutube yang nyeritain ttg IBU

entah gue gak pernah bisa posting apapun tentang ibu

rasanya kalimat aku sayang mamah aja ga bisa ngewakilin rasa sayang itu, kayanya butuh kalimat yang lebih dari aku sayang mamah untuk bisa ngungkapin segalanya

lebay sih yaudahlah sekarang mikirnya sampe kapan ya bisa terus2an hidup kaya gini, dalam keadaan seperti ini semua masih lengkap, semua masih sehat, semua bahagia. tapi semua pasti akan pergi entah siapa duluan, mungkin aku dulu. atau siapapun itu. orang sih mikirnya gue mah bodo amat cuma mikirin diri sendiri dan bla bla, ya itukan kalo dari luar ya, tapi gak tau kan kalo tiap malem gue nangis? HAHAHA nangisin apa? nangisin kapan ketemu jodoh

gak deng! nangisin gmn nanti kalo salah satu dari keluarga gue ada yang meninggal, ayah udah tua sekarang sering sakit2an, mamah udah mulai keriput diwajahnya dan ubannya semakin banyak, ngebayangin gmn nanti kalo kita mati, dosa gue banyak, gmn nanti dikuburan gak ada mamah, apa2 mamah, ada cacing gendut dikamar mandi teriak2 manggil mamah buat buangin, gmn nanti dikuburan sendiri gelap gak ada mamah, ya Allah.

pernah suatu malem gue tidur sama mamah dikamar belakang, diruang tv ada ayah, mbak sendy dan lintang, trus gue bercanda2 sm emak gue trs doi minta digarukin gt kan punggungnya dan gue bilang dengan nada manja sambil ketawa2 "gantian dong mah, mamah mulu yang digarukin, aku dong rambutnya digarukin" trus bapak gue sm mbak sendy sm lintang ke kamar belakang buka pintu ngagetin gt dan bapak gue matanya melotot trus kakak gue mukanya khawatir gitu dan mereka bilang "ada apaan sih?" trus gue sm emak gue kaget sambil ketawa lah ini ngapa pada kesini mukanya ngajak ribut gitu hahaha trus emak gue bilang "apaan sih org mau tidur" trus gue sm emak gue ngakak sejadi2nya dan bapak gue bilang "kirain ada apaan berantem gitu". sumpah lah itu apaan banget trus udahannya gue nangis gitu sedih mikir sampe kapan ya bisa ketawa lepas kaya gini dikamar berduaan sm mamah, dan berdoa dalam hati "berikanlah kesehatan dan umur panjang untuk mamah" amin. dan untungnya lampunya mati jadi gak keciri banget kalo gue nangis.

kalo orang bilang anak perempuan deketnya sama org tua laki2 dan anak laki2 deketnya sm org tua perempuan. iya bener sih! rata2 tmn gue juga begitu tapi ya sebagian besar begitu tapi gue deket kok sama dua2nya, bisa dibilang deket banget malah ya meskipun anak kesayangan emak gue tetep mbak sendy huhu ya kocak sih kalo ngebahas ini, kalo mbak sendy abis makan piringnya masih dimeja makan ga dimarahin ntar giliran gue naro gelas sembarangan aja marahnya sampeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee panjang hahaha kalo pagi2 sarapan disediain lah gue pontang panting sendiri, kalo berangkat kerja pagernya dibukain, jangankan pager, yang buka gembok aja gue sendiri LOL sedih dah yak tapi ya sebenernya ibu memperlakukan anak2nya sama, tp mbak sendy jg selalu mikir kalo gue adalah anak kesayangan bokap gue, apa2 gue mulu, bokap gue punya barang baru yang ditawarin pertama pasti gue, minta temenin kemana gitu mintanya sm gue, mau ke bengkel buat ambil motor pasti sm gue, mau minta nasi goreng atau dimasakin apa gt pasti minta dibikininnya sm gue, pergi beli sesuatu minta nemeninnya sm gue, ya kenapa? karna gue punya tenaga kuli hhhhhhh

ya cekatan gt anaknya gabisa klemar klemer gak kaya kakak dan adik gue yang klemar klemer lemes kalo ngerjain sesuatu, nah kalo gue efeknya lebih strong lol makanya kalo apa2 nyuruhnya gue termasuk nyokap gue yg lebih memilih untuk nyuruh gue ketimbang kakak dan adik gue (lelah adik mah disuruh terus) huhuhu

kok jadi kaya gini ya ceritanya gak mellow lagi huhu

gue punya cerita yang gue dapet dr firman sulistyo, bukan kok bukan ttg doi tp ttg org lain. jadi doi wkt disolo lagi dirumah makan sendokiran nunggu bapaknya dan ada bapak2 sm ibu2 yang lagi makan berdua dimeja sebelah (au sebelah mana) keadaan rumah makan itu sih kaya biasanya, trus dibelakangnya firman ini ada anak cowo yang mesen teh panas, setelah tehnya sampe dia langsung bawa teh panas itu dan disiram ke bapak dan ibu2 yang lagi makan itu sambil bilang "ibu sakit pak dirumah" gue diem, speechless, gila itu anak berani amat sm bapaknya, teh panas booo apa gak kelojotan kan yak tapi salut bukan main berani ngelawan org tua laki2 demi org tua perempuan, panasnya teh panas itu gak ada apa2nya dibanding rasa sakitnya yang dialamin seorang ibu. i appreciate sih pria, cowok atau laki2 yang sayang banget sm orang tua perempuan lebih lebih dari bapaknya..

i'll marry un homme comme ca, amin ya rabbal alamin

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LOL sumpah gak bohong ini nyokap gue banget

tiap hari, tiap sore, hp gue gak pernah sepi dari sms nyokap, kalo bapak gue sih ya sms sih tapi jarang, jarang bgt malah. pernah emak gue smsin gue mulu nanyain udah pulang belum dan bla bla bla bla blanya sampe diomongin sm tmn gue (jaman SMA) "si febby emaknya perhatian bgt ya dismsin mulu lah emak gue boro2" ya oke sih perhatian tapi kadang kan jadi gak bebas ya kaya dikekang gitu ga bisa kesana kesini sampe akhirnya gue bilang supaya mamah gak smsin gue mulu dan akhirnya mamah tetep smsin gue tapi gak sengegaz jaman dulu LOL sampe pas kuliah tiap pagi tiap nyampe kampus gue harus selalu laporan sm nyokap gue kalo gue udah sampe kampus biar nyokap gue gak ketar-ketir mikirin gue takut kenapa2 dijalan karna depok-rawamangun jaraknya lanca bana, ntar kalo gue kelupaan sms, emak gue akan ngegaz kirim sms sampe 10 kali minta dibales biar tenang dirumah tapi seiring berjalannya waktu sampe hari ini gue gak pernah sms mamah lagi tiap nyampe kampus, paling kalo pulang malam dari kampus baru ngabarin dan seperti biasa lgsg ngegaz "febby pulang sm siapa? ada temannya engga? siapin recehan takut ada yang ngamen, naik mobil yang cepet aja, hati2 febby dijalan, baca doa, jangan main hp" hahahaha sedih dah gue ngetiknya. nyokap gue ini kaya bunglon dia bisa berubah2, bisa jadi malaikat dan bisa juga jadi monster yang super duper nakutin, semua pasti demi kebaikan anaknya. iloveyou mammaaaa

Best Advice: The Only Question You Need to Ask Yourself at the End of Every Day The best advice I was ever given wasn’t from any of t...

Best Advice: The Only Question You Need to Ask Yourself at the End of Every Day

The best advice I was ever given wasn’t from any of the CEOs or successful entrepreneurs I’ve met. Nor was it from any business book. It was from my dad. I was doing my Law Society Finals, which is basically the final exam you have to take to qualify as a lawyer in the UK. It was a difficult year, lots of hard graft, and when all my friends had already started working, I had gone back to studying.

Just as I was about to start my final revisions, I remember telling my dad that the pass rate was only 60 percent, i.e. that 40 percent of people fail, and that I was really struggling with this statistic. It was doing my head in that after so much hard work I still had nearly a 50 percent chance of failing.

That was when my dad gave me his best advice: “Just do your best and let God do the rest."

It had such a strong effect on me that, 26 years on, I remember exactly where I was standing in my childhood bedroom and I remember my knee grazing against the corner of the little guest bed I had in my room. I remember my brain taking it in. It gave me an extraordinary sense of calm and reassurance that I didn’t have to grapple with the statistics, with the "what ifs." There was no point fretting about the bits we have absolutely no control over. All that was in my power was to study as best I could. Full stop. It was so simple and yet life-changing for me.

Photo: The author with her grandparents and father (right)

I have taken this advice with me throughout my life and believe that it is because of this advice that I have had the confidence — or more like freedom — to try new things, venture out, start businesses, write books. The essence of this advice is not about not setting goals. Goals are empowering. Goals are energizing. It is our life blood to strive, to aim, to dream. Instead, it’s about letting go of the attachment we so often have to the outcome of those goals.

Why? Because it’s that attachment to the outcome that is debilitating. It makes us powerless because it puts our attention on the future — something we have absolutely no control over. Think of it this way. You know the expression "if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans." So many of our plans get totally diverted and uprooted, but often for the better. We do something and it ends up somewhere we never ever expected, a totally new direction and an outcome that is bigger than we would have ever imagined. That's the beauty of life.

So that's why if we put too much of our attention on the outcome we want or spend too much time thinking about it or try to control it in any way, we could actually be limiting what might happen. We could actually be sabotaging the outcome. But by setting a goal and doing our best every day and leaving the rest to God, to the universe or whatever higher power we believe in, then we are opening up to possibilities. It is a bit like a plant sowing its seeds. The plant never knows where its seeds will fall or which seeds will thrive — it just throws them off randomly — but for sure somewhere beautiful flowers will grow.

I recently came across this quote from Ekhart Tolle which has the same message. “Don't be concerned with the fruit of your action. Just give attention to the action itself. The fruit will come of its own accord."

So go ahead. Set your goals. Dream and work hard towards them, but give yourself the freedom not to be attached to the outcome. Let your only question when the day is done be: "Have I done my best today?" And if that answer is yes, then trust that you have put the energy out there. You have created momentum towards your goal and what comes of it, where it ends up, may very well pleasantly surprise you.